The Poet, an abecediarian poem, E.C. Alberts


…another day/ another hour/another step towards closing my family’s bookstore forever/antsy with a feeling like sadness/antsy with feelings I don’t understand/ attempting to numb myself with work/ biting my lower lip until I taste blood/ blinking back tears as I pull apart the shelves…

This poem is an excerpt from my young adult verse-novel, The Notebook of Teagan Trace, which I am writing in a multitude of poetic forms. An abecedarian poem is an acrostic form that begins each line with successive letters of the alphabet. 


The Poet: an Abecedarian Poem

another day

another hour

another step towards closing my family’s bookstore forever


antsy with a feeling like sadness

antsy with feelings I don’t understand


attempting to numb myself with work


biting my lower lip until I taste blood


blinking back tears as I pull apart the shelves

books of biographies

books of play scripts

books of poetry

books that I’ve looked at everyday, familiar as family


boxing away years of memory


caffeinated on too many cappuccinos, Mom bounces round the shop

clearing the rusty filing cabinet

clearing the non-fiction shelves

clearing the textbooks


cloaking the SALE! EVERYTHING 25-75% OFF sign with a new one that says





Dad hiding out in the back office

dazed expression on his face as he stares into his screensaver

Depressed, Mom whispers as she zips past me


dictionary definition: dejected, despairing, despondent, dismal, distressed


door bell jingles, but no one goes to see but me

dressed in sleek black pants and a red v-neck top, a woman a little younger

    than Mom enters the shop

each arm adorned with wooden bangles

ebony hair pulled back into a bun


eyes meeting mine, she smiles


Finally found you, she says. I’ve heard you’re one of the few bookshops that

    still stocks poetry. But I’m sorry to see you’re closing


fingers fumbling at my sides, I tell her in a

flat-toned voice how all books are 75%, for her to let me know if she needs

    any help


folding her hands, she says she’s

foraging for one book in particular


Forgetting: A History, a book of poems by Zara Valentine


Frivolous of me, really, she says. I gave too many away when it first came out,

    and now I only have a few left

Funny how you never think of your first book going out of print


goggle-eyed, I stare at her – she’s the author?

goose pimples creeping up my arms because I’ve never met a published

    poet before


gradually I get a grip

guide her to the poetry section


hastily, I thumb through what’s left on the shelf – H, I, J, K

head not working, I skip through V straight to Z

heat on my cheeks as I hunt through the stack


Here, I say, handing her the shiny black book, edges bent

hibiscus flowers decorating the front cover


holding the book to her chest, she breathes out. Thank you

How wonderful


I am not able to stand it anymore, and I blurt out, So you’re the poet who

    wrote this?


I am, she says, I’m Zara


I am fumbling now, a million questions spluttering out

I ask her how she first got published

I ask her how she started writing

I ask her if she always wanted to be a poet

I ask her if she keeps a notebook

I ask her where her books sell, since big chains don’t stock much poetry,

    and independents like ours are closing down

I ask her why, when, how she got published when poetry’s considered dead,

    dead, dead


I even start telling her about my own notebook, how I’m always scribbling

    poems and poem-like words and things like cinquains and acrostics

I say I’m sure my poems aren’t as good as hers


in the background, Mom flits around the shop, giving me eyes to come help,

    but I ignore her


Inexpressible reasons why I started to write, Zara says, telling me about the

influence of English teachers, her insatiable appetite for books, her mother dying

    when she was eight, giving her the constant itch to create

initially working as a secretary, writing poems in the hours after work

innate feeling that poetry is what she should do, money or no money, sent her

    first manuscript to fifty-one publishers before she got a yes from a

    small publishing house, Metaphor

inner strengthening when Metaphor filed for bankruptcy just months after they

  published Forgetting

inspired by her dad to keep writing, who told her not to listen to people who

    said writing poetry was useless

involved in writing a sixth book now


It’s great to hear you write, Zara says, Do you have any poetry here I could

    read? And tell me, what was your name?


jack-in-the-box in my chest, I tell her Teagan, Teagan Trace

jittery legs



knowing my notebook’s on the floor beside me


lapse of time before I reach down and pick it up

leaking sweat as I hand it to her


letting Zara leaf through my notebook

letting Zara – someone I just met – read poems I haven’t even shown my best friend

    or my parents


looking at her face as she reads

looking hard at every blink and lip twitch, wondering what it means




millions of moments march by before Zara looks up

mouth moving slow motion, she says, Your poems are strong, Teagan.

     They’ve got great energy.

Must say, I think your cinquain sequence is my favourite


nervously, I start to say that my poems aren’t that good, they’re just silly things

    I write to pass the time

neurons neurotically flittering, I realize I sound just like my grandma


now she locks her gaze on me

now Zara asks, Have you ever thought of making poetry your career?


o yes I’ve thought of it

of getting books published

of spending every day writing at a desk


only I have always thought I had to be something else – a lawyer, a stockbroker,

    a dentist

only I think of Grandma saying poetry’s dead

only I’m packing away books in my family’s shop that’s closing down


ooh but my heart sings yes, yes, yes

outlandish to think of doing anything else


palimpsest of my heart






quaky-legged, I ask Zara, But how do you make money?


Quite a few people still read poetry, you know, she says with a wink


really honestly, though, Zara admits that she

receives little recompense for her work

rectified her finances for awhile by waitressing part-time

reduced her spending

resolved her situation by starting a small online business, so now

    she can write all day and fiddle with her business at night

Risky? she says. Perhaps. But I know I wouldn’t be happy if I couldn’t write


she tells me I can do this, too

she tells me I should follow my gut

she tells me not to listen to people who say poetry’s dead


somewhere behind us, Mom shouts my name


Think you better go, Zara says


throat closing up, I nod

together Zara and I wander towards the door




tripping over my words, I tell her not to worry about paying for her book


unexpectedly, she says, I’d actually like you to have it. And here…

unfastening her purse, she digs out her card

urging it into my hands with the book


verbal functions no longer working

verging (stupidly) on the point of tears

Very nice of you, I splutter, thank you


Where are you, Teagan? Mom calls


whirling around to go, Zara says, Keep writing!





writing already in my head


writing poems

writing poems


writing Zara an email: I can’t say how much I loved meeting you



yelling to Mom that I’m coming


Zara’s words



zooming as I go


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EC Alberts

Elizabeth Claire Alberts (aka Claire Buchel) is a PhD candidate in creative writing at Macquarie University, where she also teaches creative writing. In 2012, she spent three months as a research fellow at the International Youth Library in Munich, Germany, working on her thesis on young adult verse-novels. Her published work includes poetry, children’s fiction, creative non-fiction and journalism. When she isn’t writing, she’s preparing raw vegan cuisine, scuba diving, and working in any way she can to protect the environment.